It does, doesn't it?
"Get worse" I mean. It's been an astonishingly crappy year and now it feels like we're drowning even deeper into literal shit.
There's this song by Bogdan Munteanu (it's in Romanian though) and I keep listening to it. It's got a cheerful beat to it but it's a very real and touching one nonetheless. Talks about all the distractions, political and not, that occurred lately or that keep occurring and it truly makes you self aware about the numbness that has deeply settled upon your shoulders.
It's a heavy feeling that might make anyone have a full on panic attack if given too much thought, yet we became so efficient at distracting ourselves from the cruelty that is reality right now.
Extremism is blooming all over the world. People are scared (for valid reasons) and here we sit... numb.
There's a fucking genocide going on for years killing children and nobody truly cares.
People are being murdered outside of their homes by their own governments and people are still fighting this made up enemy. Blinded by hate aren't we all.
Hate, racism, elitism and capitalism. These are the end of us. Billionaires turning trillionaires and poor people dying by their hands.
I don't see a bright future ahead. I don't even wanna think about it too much. It would end me.
I'm usually not THAT pessimistic, but the lack of ACTION is alarming.
I am too tired to act and scream into void anymore. I want to focus on myself. I've been trying to push my views onto people for too long and it came back to bite my ass.
I've ditched Facebook and I'm slowly ditching other platforms or at least making the smart choice of blocking anything that slightly bothers me.
I'm grateful for the privilege that I have. I have worked my ass off to get here, but it is still a privilege for many reasons. I am aware of that. Yet, I've made a promise to distance myself from problems that don't affect my family or me directly.
I need to heal. I need to learn to be me again. I feel like I've lost myself somewhere along this very weird path (probably during COVID).
My empathy used to go out towards all the people being scared of the unknown that is the near future, but now it ends when I see y'all never taking action. YOU need to wake up because YOU are in the utmost danger.
Educational system destroyed the young minds and all that, sure. But now you're a grown ass person and you are making the sensible choice of doomscrolling TikToks of bum cheeks for 5 hours a day or chatting up with buddies in some gatekept community.
Good luck with that. Great character development there, buddy.
Note: If you are reading this I'm almost sure that you are not the YOU I was talking about in the upper paragraphs.